This morning I went to the gym. Maybe it’s that I just did an Olympic distance triathlon on Saturday. Maybe I’m just feeling lazy. Maybe I’m burned out. I just could not get the motivation to swim for more than 10 minutes. I was going to lift weight too but…meh, I just didn’t feel like it.
The thing is, there have been plenty of other times during my training when I didn’t feel like it, but that didn’t stop me. I still did my workouts and felt good about it. Today, I just feel like sleeping. And at the back of my mind I find myself thinking “What does it matter? I’m not signed up for anything.” And that scares me. It scares me because I wonder if I’ll feel any different tomorrow, or the next day, or the next. Maybe I’m just having a single down day, but what if it isn’t just for one day?
The trouble with it all is that it’s the beginning of winter, and that means the end of the triathlon season. Well, it means the end of every season except skiing and snowboarding season, but I don’t ski, and snowboarding won’t keep me in shape for triathlon, even if my back and hipflexor could handle it. My tentative plan is to sign up for the SLC full marathon in April, the Boise half-Ironman in June, and then the full Ironman in Panama City, Florida next November. Perhaps the marathon in April is enough to keep me running, but what about biking and swimming? If I don’t have an event until June, then I feel like I’m going to slack off on those two.
My coach says there’s a duathlon early next year in St. George, so maybe that’s something I can train for, but I need more ideas, even if it means traveling out of state.